幸福，是累積生活裡的每一份感動

The Holiday

What I'm trying to say is
I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible.
How it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you had inside you.
It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get
or gyms you join or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with girlfriends.
You still go to bed every night going over every detail
and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood.
And how in the hell, for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy?
And sometimes you can even convince yourself
that he'll see the light and show up at your door.
And after all that
however long 'all that' may be you'll go somewhere new.
And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again.
And little pieces of your soul will finally come back.
And all that fuzzy stuff
those years of your life that you wasted
that will eventually begin to fade.

我想說的是
我了解那種渺小又微不足道的感受
就算遍體鱗傷也要故作堅強
不管換了幾個新髮型或是去健身
或是和姊妹淘喝白酒
日日夜夜都仍在回想著每個細節
納悶自己到底哪裡錯了
最後自問怎麼會把短暫的歡愉
錯當成永久的快樂
有時會說服自己
他會想清楚回來的
經歷過這一切後
到頭來, 人會重新開始
再遇到值得付出的人
然後一點一點地重拾自信
而那些模糊的回憶
那麼多年浪費掉的人生
終究還是會消逝

上天安排一切都是有祂的道理存在的吧!
這部電影我想看了多久多久　總是沒有看成
甚至就連租回來了我都跟它失之交臂
卻在歷經了這麼些事情跟體認後
偶然在HBO才看見
這些話是多麼的震撼人心　迴盪在心底好久好久

那些堅持的一幕幕　又是以怎麼樣的光速在腦海裡閃過一遍又一遍
過去到底做錯了些什麼？　跟姐妹們喝過的酒手指也數沒完
讓髮型短暫喚回的快樂　有多少回
然而時間就這樣蹉跎了　消逝了
自信是不是有照著同樣的速度回到自己身邊？
是不是值得付出就不會再有傷害？

或許像是片名一樣　身體、心靈
都需要好好放個假　做個釋放的SPA